C i n t a t i d a k p e r n a h m e m i n t a , i a s e n t i a s a m e m b e r i , c i n t a m e m b a w a p e n d e r i t a a n , t e t a p i t i d a k p e r n a h
b e r d e n d a m , t a k p e r n a h m e m b a l a s d e n d a m . D i m a n a a d a c i n t a d i s i t u a d a k e h i d u p a n ; m a n a k a l a
k e b e n c i a n m e m b a w a k e p a d a k e m u s n a h a n .
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m e n d e n g a r d a n d u a m a t a u n t u k m e l i h a t . T e t a p i m e n g a p a T u h a n h a n y a m e n g a n u g e r a h k a n s e k e p i n g h a t i
p a d a k i t a ? K a r e n a T u h a n t e l a h m e m b e r i k a n s e k e p i n g l a g i h a t i p a d a s e s e o r a n g u n t u k k i t a m e n c a r i n y a .
I t u l a h n a m a n y a C i n t a .
A d a 2 t i t i s a i r m a t a m e n g a l i r d i s e b u a h s u n g a i . S a t u t i t i s a i r m a t a t u m e n y a p a a i r m a t a y g s a t u l a g i , �
S a y a a i r m a t a s e o r a n g g a d i s y a n g m e n c i n t a i s e o r a n g l e l a k i t e t a p i t e l a h k e h i l a n g a n n y a . S i a p a k a m u
p u l a ? � . J a w a b t i t i s a i r m a t a k e d u a t u , � S a y a a i r m a t a s e o r a n g l e l a k i y a n g m e n y e s a l m e m b i a r k a n
s e o r a n g g a d i s y a n g m e n c i n t a i s a y a b e r l a l u b e g i t u s a h a j a . �
C i n t a s e j a t i a d a l a h k e t i k a d i a m e n c i n t a i o r a n g l a i n , d a n k a m u m a s i h m a m p u t e r s e n y u m , s a m b i l b e r k a t a :
a k u t u r u t b a h a g i a u n t u k m u .
J i k a k i t a m e n c i n t a i s e s e o r a n g , k i t a a k a n s e n t i a s a m e n d o a k a n n y a w a l a u p u n d i a t i d a k b e r a d a d i s i s i k i t a .
J a n g a n s e s e k a l i m e n g u c a p k a n s e l a m a t t i n g g a l j i k a k a m u m a s i h m a u m e n c o b a . J a n g a n s e s e k a l i
m e n y e r a h j i k a k a m u m a s i h m e r a s a s a n g g u p . J a n g a n s e s e k a l i m e n g a t a k a n k a m u t i d a k m e n c i n t a i n y a l a g i
j i k a k a m u m a s i h t i d a k d a p a t m e l u p a k a n n y a .
P e r a s a a n c i n t a i t u d i m u l a i d a r i m a t a , s e d a n g k a n r a s a s u k a d i m u l a i d a r i t e l i n g a . J a d i j i k a k a m u m a h u
b e r h e n t i m e n y u k a i s e s e o r a n g , c u k u p d e n g a n m e n u t u p t e l i n g a . T a p i a p a b i l a k a m u C o b a m e n u t u p
m a t a m u d a r i o r a n g y a n g k a m u c i n t a i , c i n t a i t u b e r u b a h m e n j a d i t i t i s a n a i r m a t a d a n t e r u s t i n g g a l
d i h a t i m u d a l a m j a r a k w a k t u y a n g c u k u p l a m a .
C i n t a d a t a n g k e p a d a o r a n g y a n g m a s i h m e m p u n y a i h a r a p a n w a l a u p u n m e r e k a t e l a h d i k e c e w a k a n .
K e p a d a m e r e k a y a n g m a s i h p e r c a y a , w a l a u p u n m e r e k a t e l a h d i k h i a n a t i . K e p a d a m e r e k a y a n g m a s i h
i n g i n m e n c i n t a i , w a l a u p u n m e r e k a t e l a h d i s a k i t i s e b e l u m n y a d a n k e p a d a m e r e k a y a n g m e m p u n y a i
k e b e r a n i a n d a n k e y a k i n a n u n t u k m e m b a n g u n k a n k e m b a l i k e p e r c a y a a n .
J a n g a n s i m p a n k a t a - k a t a c i n t a p a d a o r a n g y a n g t e r s a y a n g s e h i n g g a d i a m e n i n g g a l d u n i a , l a n t a r a n
a k h i r n y a k a m u t e r p a k s a c a t a t k a n k a t a - k a t a c i n t a i t u p a d a p u s a r a n y a . S e b a l i k n y a u c a p k a n k a t a - k a t a
c i n t a y a n g t e r s i m p a n d i b e n a k m u i t u s e k a r a n g s e l a g i a d a h a y a t n y a .
M u n g k i n T u h a n m e n g i n g i n k a n k i t a b e r t e m u d a n b e r c i n t a d e n g a n o r a n g y a n g s a l a h s e b e l u m b e r t e m u
d e n g a n o r a n g y a n g t e p a t , k i t a h a r u s m e n g e r t i b a g a i m a n a b e r t e r i m a k a s i h a t a s k u r n i a a n i t u .
C i n t a b u k a n m e n g a j a r k i t a l e m a h , t e t a p i m e m b a n g k i t k a n k e k u a t a n . C i n t a b u k a n m e n g a j a r k i t a
m e n g h i n a k a n d i r i , t e t a p i m e n g h e m b u s k a n k e g a g a h a n . C i n t a b u k a n m e l e m a h k a n s e m a n g a t , t e t a p i
m e m b a n g k i t k a n s e m a n g a t - H a m k a
C i n t a d a p a t m e n g u b a h p a h i t m e n j a d i m a n i s , d e b u b e r a l i h e m a s , k e r u h m e n j a d i b e n i n g , s a k i t m e n j a d i
s e m b u h , p e n j a r a m e n j a d i t e l a g a , d e r i t a m e n j a d i n i k m a t , d a n k e m a r a h a n m e n j a d i r a h m a t .
S u n g g u h m e n y a k i t k a n m e n c i n t a i s e s e o r a n g y a n g t i d a k m e n c i n t a i m u , t e t a p i l e b i h m e n y a k i t k a n a d a l a h
m e n c i n t a i s e s e o r a n g d a n k a m u t i d a k p e r n a h m e m i l i k i k e b e r a n i a n u n t u k m e n y a t a k a n c i n t a m u
k e p a d a n y a .
H a l y a n g m e n y e d i h k a n d a l a m h i d u p a d a l a h k e t i k a k a m u b e r t e m u s e s e o r a n g y a n g s a n g a t b e r a r t i
b a g i m u . H a n y a u n t u k m e n e m u k a n b a h a w a p a d a a k h i r n y a m e n j a d i t i d a k b e r e r t i d a n k a m u h a r u s
m e m b i a r k a n n y a p e r g i .
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b e r k e p i n g .
D a n h a n y a d e n g a n m e n d e n g a r k a t a � H a i � d a r i n y a , d a p a t m e n y a t u k a n k e m b a l i k e p i n g a n h a t i t e r s e b u t .
T u h a n c i p t a k a n 1 0 0 b a h a g i a n k a s i h s a y a n g . 9 9 d i s i m p a n d i s i s i n y a d a n h a n y a 1 b a h a g i a n d i t u r u n k a n k e
d u n i a . D e n g a n k a s i h s a y a n g y a n g s a t u b a h a g i a n i t u l a h , m a k h l u k s a l i n g b e r k a s i h s a y a n g s e h i n g g a k u d a
m e n g a n g k a t k a k i n y a k e r a n a t a k u t a n a k n y a t e r p i j a k .
K a d a n g k a l a k a m u t i d a k m e n g h a r g a i o r a n g y a n g m e n c i n t a i k a m u s e p e n u h h a t i , s e h i n g g a l a h k a m u
k e h i l a n g a n n y a . P a d a s a a t i t u , t i a d a g u n a s e s a l a n k a r e n a p e r g i n y a t a n p a b e r p a t a h l a g i .
J a n g a n m e n c i n t a i s e s e o r a n g s e p e r t i b u n g a , k e r a n a b u n g a m a t i k a l a m u s i m b e r g a n t i . C i n t a i l a h m e r e k a
s e p e r t i s u n g a i , k e r a n a s u n g a i m e n g a l i r s e l a m a n y a .
C i n t a m a m p u m e l u n a k k a n b e s i , m e n g h a n c u r k a n b a t u , m e m b a n g k i t k a n y a n g m a t i d a n m e n i u p k a n
k e h i d u p a n p a d a n y a s e r t a m e m b u a t b u d a k m e n j a d i p e m i m p i n . I n i l a h d a s y a t n y a c i n t a !
P e r m u l a a n c i n t a a d a l a h m e m b i a r k a n o r a n g y a n g k a m u c i n t a i m e n j a d i d i r i n y a s e n d i r i , d a n t i d a k
m e r u b a h n y a m e n j a d i g a m b a r a n y a n g k a m u i n g i n k a n . J i k a t i d a k , k a m u h a n y a m e n c i n t a i p a n t u l a n d i r i
s e n d i r i y a n g k a m u t e m u k a n d i d a l a m d i r i n y a .
C i n t a i t u a d a l a h p e r a s a a n y a n g m e s t i a d a p a d a t i a p - t i a p d i r i m a n u s i a , i a l a k s a n a s e t i t i s e m b u n y a n g
t u r u n d a r i l a n g i t , b e r s i h d a n s u c i . C u m a t a n a h n y a l a h y a n g b e r l a i n - l a i n a n m e n e r i m a n y a . J i k a i a j a t u h k e
t a n a h y a n g t a n d u s , t u m b u h l a h o l e h k e r a n a e m b u n i t u k e d u r j a n a a n , k e d u s t a a n , p e n i p u , l a n g k a h s e r o n g
d a n l a i n - l a i n p e r k a r a y a n g t e r c e l a . T e t a p i j i k a i a j a t u h k e p a d a t a n a h y a n g s u b u r , d i s a n a a k a n t u m b u h
k e s u c i a a n h a t i , k e i k h l a s a n , s e t i a b u d i p e k e r t i y a n g t i n g g i d a n l a i n - l a i n p e r a n g a i y a n g t e r p u j i . ~ H a m k a
K a t a - k a t a c i n t a y a n g l a h i r h a n y a s e k a d a r d i b i b i r d a n b u k a n n y a d i h a t i m a m p u m e l u m a t k a n s e l u r u h
j i w a r a g a , m a n a k a l a k a t a - k a t a c i n t a y a n g l a h i r d a r i h a t i y a n g i k h l a s m a m p u u n t u k m e n g u b a t i s e g a l a
l u k a d i h a t i o r a n g y a n g m e n d e n g a r n y a .
K a m u t i d a k p e r n a h t a h u b i l a k a m u a k a n j a t u h c i n t a . n a m u n a p a b i l a s a m p a i s a a t n y a i t u , r a i h l a h d e n g a n
k e d u a t a n g a n m u , d a n j a n g a n b i a r k a n d i a p e r g i d e n g a n s e j u t a r a s a t a n d a t a n y a d i h a t i n y a
C i n t a b u k a n l a h k a t a m u r a h d a n l u m r a h d i t u t u r k a n d a r i m u l u t k e m u l u t t e t a p i c i n t a a d a l a h a n u g e r a h
T u h a n y a n g i n d a h d a n s u c i j i k a m a n u s i a d a p a t m e n i l a i k e s u c i a n n y a .
B u k a n l a u t n a m a n y a j i k a a i r n y a t i d a k b e r o m b a k . B u k a n c i n t a n a m a n y a j i k a p e r a s a a n t i d a k p e r n a h
t e r l u k a . B u k a n k e k a s i h n a m a n y a j i k a h a t i n y a t i d a k p e r n a h m e r i n d u d a n c e m b u r u .
B e r c i n t a m e m a n g m u d a h . U n t u k d i c i n t a i j u g a m e m a n g m u d a h . T a p i u n t u k d i c i n t a i o l e h o r a n g y a n g k i t a
c i n t a i i t u l a h y a n g s u k a r d i p e r o l e h .
S a t u - s a t u n y a c a r a a g a r k i t a m e m p e r o l e h i k a s i h s a y a n g , i a l a h j a n g a n m e n u n t u t a g a r k i t a d i c i n t a i , t e t a p i
m u l a i l a h m e m b e r i k a s i h s a y a n g k e p a d a o r a n g l a i n t a n p a m e n g h a r a p k a n b a l a s a n .
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K e t i k a c i n t a m e m a n g g i l k u , m a k a a k u a k a n m e l e w a t i n y a w a l a u j a l a n n y a t e r j a l b e r l i k u , j i k a c i n t a
m e m e l u k k u a k a n k u d e k a p e n g k a u w a l a u p e d a n g d i s e l a - s e l a s a y a p n y a m e l u k a i k u . A k u h a n y a i n g i n
m e n y e n t u h t a n g a n k e a b a d i a n k a r e n a C i n t a a d a l a h s a t u - s a t u n y a k e b e b a s a n d i d u n i a k a r e n a c i n t a i t u
m e m b a n g k i t k a n s e m a n g a t h i d u p - h i d u p k u d a n g e j a l a a l a m i p u n t a k m a m p u m e n g u b a h p e r j a l a n a n n y a .
J i k a c i n t a t i d a k d a p a t m e n g e m b a l i k a n e n g k a u k e p a d a k u d a l a m k e h i d u p a n i n i , p a s t i l a h c i n t a a k a n
m e n y a t u k a n k i t a d a l a m k e h i d u p a n y a n g a k a n d a t i n g , d a n a t a s n a m a c i n t a a k u b e r s u m p a h h a n y a a k a n
m e n y a n j u n g c i n t a d a n m e n c i n t a i m u . C i n t a a d a l a h k e s e s u a i a n j i w a d a n j i k a i t u t a k p e r n a h a d a , c i n t a t a k
a k a n p e r n a h t e r c i p t a d a l a m h i t u n g a n t a h u n b a h k a n a b a d . t e r b a l u t d a l a m k e r e n d a h a n h a t i w a l a u p u n
h a r u s b e r s e m b u n y i d a n b e r g e r a k d a l a m k e g e l a p a n a k u t a k k a n l a r i d e m i c i n t a .
P e r t a m a a k u m e n c i n t a i k a u y a n g p e r t a m a a d a l a h i m a g i n a s i n y a d a n y a n g k e d u a a d a l a h y a n g
b e l u m d i l a h i r k a n . A k u h a n y a m e n c i n t a i m u k e k a s i h k u , w a l a u p u n a k u t a k t a h u i n i a d a l a h t a k d i r . K i t a
a k a n s e l a l u b e r s a m a d a n t i d a k a k a n a d a y a n g m e m i s a h k a n c i n t a k u a t a s m u .
S u a r a k e h i d u p a n k u m e s k i t a k a k a n m a m p u m e n j a n g k a u t e l i n g a k e h i d u p a n m u t a p i a k u a k a n b i c a r a
u n t u k d a p a t m e n g u s i r k e s e p i a n d a n t i d a k m e r a s a j e m u .
A k u m e n c i n t a i m u k e k a s i h k u . K e i n d a h a n a d a l a h c i n t a k u k a n k u b u k a t a b i r p e n u t u p w a j a h , d a n k a u
a d a l a h k e h i d u p a n k u i t u , k a u c a d a r i t u . K a u a d a l a h k e i n d a h a n k e a b a d i a n y a n g t e r m a n g u d i d e p a n
c e r m i n , d a n k a u a d a l a h k e a b a d i a n i t u , k a u l a h c e r m i n i t u .
R u m a h m u t a k a k a n m e n j a d i s e b u a h s a n g k a r , m e l a i n k a n t i a n g u t a m a s e b u a h k a p a l l a y a r t u k m e n u j u
b a h t e r a c i n t a y a n g a b a d i
A k u i n g i n m e n c i n t a i m u d e n g a n s e d e r h a n a . . . s e p e r t i k a t a y a n g t a k s e m p a t d i u c a p k a n k a y u k e p a d a a p i
y a n g m e n j a d i k a n n y a a b u . . . A k u i n g i n m e n c i n t a i m u d e n g a n s e d e r h a n a . . . s e p e r t i i s y a r a t y a n g t a k s e m p a t
d i k i r i m k a n a w a n k e p a d a h u j a n y a n g m e n j a d i k a n n y a t i a d a .
A k u h a n y a i n g i n b a h a g i a , K e k a s i h k u k a r e n a k i t a d i i k a t b e r s a m a d a l a m c i n t a . H a n y a d e n g a n c i n t a y a n g
i n d a h . . . k i t a d a p a t b e r t a h a n t e r h a d a p d e r i t a k e m i s k i n a n , p a h i t n y a k e s e d i h a n , d a n d u k a p e r p i s a h a n , a p a
y a n g t e l a h k u c i n t a i l a k s a n a b u n g a - b u n g a i n d a h . . . d a n a p a y a n g k u c i n t a i k i n i . . . a k a n k u c i n t a i s a m p a i
a k h i r h i d u p k u , k a r e n a k a u i a l a h s e m u a y a n g d a p a t k u c a p a i . . . d a n t a k a d a y a n g a k a n m e n c a b u t d i r i k u
d a r i p a d a n y a .
C i n t a y a n g d i b a s u h o l e h a i r m a t a a k a n t e t a p m u r n i d a n i n d a h s e n t i a s a .
S e o r a n g w a n i t a y a n g t e l a h d i l e n g k a p i o l e h T u h a n d e n g a n k e i n d a h a n j i w a d a n r a g a u n t u k k u c i n t a i ,
y a n g s e k a l i g u s n y a t a d a n m a y a , y a n g h a n y a b i s a a k u f a h a m i d e n g a n c i n t a k a s i h , d a n h a n y a b i s a a k u
s e n t u h d e n g a n k e b a j i k a n .
T u h a n t e l a h m e n y a l a k a n o b o r d a l a m h a t i k u y a n g m e m a n c a r k a n c a h a y a p e n g e t a h u a n d a n k e i n d a h a n ,
s u n g g u h b e r d o s a j i k a a k u m e m a d a m k a n n y a d a n m e n c a m p a k k a n n y a d a l a m a b u .
K e k u a t a n c i n t a k u a d a l a h a n u g e r a h t e r b e s a r y a n g d i b e r i k a n T u h a n k e p a d a k u , s e b a b k e k u a t a n i t u t i d a k
a k a n p e r n a h d i r e n g g u t d a r i m a n u s i a p e n u h b e r k a t y a n g m e n c i n t a .
A k u t i d a k d a p a t m e n u a i c i n t a s a m p a i k u m e r a s a k a n p e r p i s a h a n y a n g m e n y e d i h k a n , d a n y a n g m a m p u
m e m b u k a f i k i r a n n y a , m e r a s a k a n k e s a b a r a n y a n g p a h i t d a n k e s u l i t a n y a n g m e n y e d i h k a n .
K e t i k a a k u b e r d i r i b a g a i k a n s e b u a h c e r m i n j e r n i h d i h a d a p a n m u , k a m u m e m a n d a n g k e d a l a m d i r i k u
d a n m e l i h a t b a y a n g a n m u . K e m u d i a n k a m u b e r k a t a , " A k u c i n t a k a m u . " A k u h a n y a i n g i n k a u m e n c i n t a i
d i r i m u d a l a m d i r i k u .
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p a d a - M u .
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d a n t e r a n g i l a h j a l a n k u .
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k e r i n d u a n t e r h a d a p c i n t a .
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